I'm in a pretty rough spot right now. my husband and I are overseas and he is currently deployed. He just told me that when he comes back he probably will only have a week or two before he goes back out. He has been gone for most of the year so far and has missed our anniversary. I'm not close to my family and the flight to them would be over 12 hours. We have no kids but I feel like I'm unappreciated for what little I do provide for us.
I don't have a base to rely on for support, resources, or events and the spouses here do not meet up. When I have met up with spouses they say if they didn't have kids like me they would be doing x, y, z and they would never be bored. I'm not bored I'm just depressed and I've lost all of my motivation.
I volunteer 2 times a week at 2 different places, and I joined a club to meet up on the weekends and I still feel lonely as can be. I have tried to work but have had no luck since moving here. I work out every weekday at the gym even if it's just a 20 minutes walk I can manage.
I'm an introvert but I have been throwing myself out there, meeting with people to no avail. I only feel anxious meeting up with new people and only feel relief when it's over. I even do follow up dates and nothing. It feels like I'm stressing myself out speed dating with people and getting nowhere. When people ask me if I want to do something I always say yes but secretly I don't know if it does anything for me.
I have also tried both the peer-to-peer counseling and the regular counseling with a therapist but neither seemed to help much. It was the only online resource I could find through MilOneSource and even then I had to be awake at weird hours. Sorry for the rant, but I feel like I have exhausted most of my opinions. If anyone has any online resources I can use I would appreciate it.