I live in Colorado, and I have friends, but I am pretty lonely, so I really want a new girlfriend, especially since they (my friends) all have jobs and other things that keep them busy most of the time. I thought libraries might work but I am unsure if they are single or not so I don't ask as just working up the courage to talk to a girl is a struggle for me and when I get a flat out rejection I tend to not be able to work up the courage for several weeks or months because I am worried I'll just get another rejection or that they'll be in a relationship or worse call me disgusting and to f off or any number of negative possibilities really. I have had horrible experience with women since I was a kid I am now 31 and have a lot of other trauma in my past that I won't go into detail but my therapist says I might have PTSD and I do have a lot panic attacks and manic depressive episodes which makes it even harder to talk to a girl without having a panic attack or being too depressed after a rejection. I also am struggling currently because of insane gas prices and being paid crap just enough to survive really I am trying to find a better paying job where I can work from home so I can save gas money as either a graphic designer IT or something that I can do well but isn't mind numbing with bad pay there is a local library near my house that is within walking distance like less than 1 mile, but they are currently not hiring.
I love comics and graphic novels fantasy and science fiction superheroes anything well written honestly as there is a lot of stuff that may be popular but is poorly written and people only like it because it popular which goes for all forms of media/entertainment/fiction works though somes things are popular because they are good but still aren't as popular as a lot of the slop that people like nowadays and I'm not just talking about people preffering AI slop as there was human slop before that even existed and still exists today. I won't mention any because I don't want to get into an argument, just saying I'm an introvert with panic attacks and nerdy hobbies/interests, and looking for someone who is female that I can relate to and be in a loving relationship with. Sorry if any of that sounds cringe, I just said this off the top of my head.