u/Impossible_Depth5649

I noticed I have changed as a person. I realized BDD has made me very desperate, needy, self centered, male centered, and messy.

I use to hold myself to higher standards but lately I realized all I seem to care about is if I’m enough and wanting to be pretty. In searching for that answer, I have become male centered. Im always constantly wanting validation. When I do receive that validation, I become cruel and use that to my advantage in making men do whatever I want. But then I go home and I feel so empty, numb, and I realize their validation STILL isn’t enough. BDD has also turned me into a selfish person who doesn’t care about anything except for their appearance. I have prioritize getting work done and trying to do things to better my appearance over the ppl I love. I’m ashamed of my actions, but I also realized I have found comfort in this madness. I realized wanting to be pretty brings structure into my life. It gives me something to live for, it serves as a motivation; a goal to work towards. If I were to not care, my life would be meaningless, empty, dull. I don’t know who I am without worrying about my appearance

Has anyone caused emotional harm to someone else because of BDD? Like for example, with BDD you constantly need that validation as to whether or not you’re enough. BDD causes you to be careless and inconsiderate of other ppls feelings. So often times you aren’t a girls girl bc all you care about in that moment is for someone to call you pretty/ give you validation. Or with men, you tend to treat men very shitty because you are just so unhappy with your appearance nothing they say or do is ever enough, and you constantly think they are lying to you. I never seem to be satisfied with anything in life