Hello, I truly hope this is okay to post here. I don't know where else to go. I am only just becoming aware that I have many of the traits. Like literally it hit me yesterday after seeing a Reddit post. I've spent the last day looking at up info on this and I feel like I fit covert narcissism. I am very much still in denial and I don't know if I'm just searching for something that isn't there or not. I have had multiple labels associated with my shit, namely BPD and CPTSD. I definitely have CPTSD.
The one thing that stood out to me in reading is the "narcissists feel superior to others" and that's where everything stems from. I don't feel like that. What I do have is the desire to be special, to be chosen and loved and the most important person to someone. I crave validation that I'm special.
Is that the same thing but differently packaged?