Hello everyone,
I just been having these dark thoughts, and it’s not about self harm but more or so hurting other people. A little context and a little about my life, im 17 years old,I’m not depressed, I have a loving girlfriend, I have loving friends, By Gods grace I’m not poor, I’m athletic, I play football in a good team. The only thing out of the ordinary is my relationship with my parents, it’s constant arguments and constant fighting, I fought with my mom the other day and I said a pretty vulgar word, not like I called her a bitch or anything it’s just I said a word that word translate to “ Fucking girls “ the context is just that they she thinks I do bad stuff when I never smoked never drinked and again have an excellent relationship with my gf and I would never cheat on her or anything. After saying that I thought the maybe the dark thoughts were coming to life as in they were maybe starting to creep in, I have never had a street fight or anything as well. These thoughts that are sometimes like maybe killing somone hurting my girlfriend or my mom when I would never do anything, even if we have constant arguments I’d die for my mom and I love my mother so much words can’t even explain it. These thoughts just really creep me out since like others say I’m a polite boy that’s always nice to everyone, any tips anyone could give to make these thoughts go away?
Ps: I am not open to professional help.