Hi all,
Real but I made a throwaway account I hope people don’t think I’m AI😪.
For context I am 24M and I have just gotten married around 1 month ago. I know there are ups and downs, in relationships and marriages, but recently it’s been a very steady downwards spiral, of downs that is.
Won’t disclose my wife’s age but she is young however very mentally mature ( I just read this back and realised how suspect that sounds but o can assure the general public of Reddit she is VERY much of age) she’s been through some of life’s toughest trials, and no I don’t have the rose shaded glasses on otherwise I would be making this post.
Throughout our relationship, from the very beginning, arguments have always been ‘big’, I suppose. We’d make it out of those arguments however I’ve always had this thing with women that I previously dated or had been seeing where during an argument, I get a gut feeling that I should leave I probably should but I never did and it always turned out terrible. A very long story short I consistently have that feeling when we argue and it’s only getting worse we are currently on our honeymoon and argued and it was ‘big’. The whole I should leave feeling never goes away but my wife is extremely forgiving loving although recently I’ve been seeing some cracks in that personality and that may be because of me but maybe the feeling that I should’ve left was true once again.
About myself in this situation, physically and financially I was very secure about myself and now I’m not so sure about the two. I don’t feel as if I’ve ever been ‘mentally’ okay since my outlook on the world is very bleak, but reasonable. I have hobbies, I enjoy art and fiction, video games all that jazz. But after getting married I have terrible physical health, financially I am non existent I don’t want to go too much into detail about my situation just in case she reads ( she doesn’t even use reddit, idk why I’m so paranoid)
I know this all seems like verbal diarrhoea but I just wanted to know if other people have been through this, obviously there’s way more specifics and I’d love to be able to get into that maybe just not on the thread.
Thanks all