u/Impossible-Peanut274

Soooo yeah. You can laugh… or cringe. I do both, simultaneously. I knew I shouldn’t have done it. I guess I thought marriage would change things, change us. I should’ve learned when buying a house, having a baby etc didn’t change the dynamic of the relationship. It just feels so… embarrassing. I feel like a huge disappointment. I’m just not happy, I just don’t feel like this is my person. I love him, I’ll always care about him but thinking of doing anything sexual or intimate with him makes me cringe. I wanted it to work, I really did. I’m 25 and been with him since 19. I feel like I’ve missed out on a lot and I haven’t really experienced life or even dating anyone else. I’ve grown oh so much in the last 6 years. I feel I’ve outgrown him as I’ve changed and matured and he’s stayed the same. I hate being the “villain” but I can’t pretend anymore.