I genuinely don’t understand how life can be this unfair.
I lost my dad in 2021. Back then my mom somehow held everything together for me and my brother even though she herself was broken inside. She had never worked before in her life, but after dad passed away she became strong, started working, managed the house, took care of us, and somehow kept the family going.
Her only dream was simple she wanted me to finish engineering, get a good job, hand over my first salary to her, and then she wanted to peacefully spend her life taking care of my grandparents.
That was literally all she wanted.
And now one month ago, I lost her too because of a sudden cardiac arrest.
I’m only 22 and I honestly feel lost in life. I stay in a hostel, and every night around this time I break down because this used to be the time I’d call my mom and talk to her for hours about my day. Now I still reach for my phone out of habit before realizing there’s nobody to call anymore.it
It was Mother’s Day few days ago and seeing everyone post pictures with their moms is honestly destroyed me inside. People don’t realize how empty life feels when the one person who made everything feel safe suddenly disappears.
I miss her coffee.
I miss her voice.
I miss her scoldings.
I miss her late-night talks.
I miss hearing her ask whether I ate food.
I miss home feeling like home.
I know life moves on, but right now I genuinely don’t know how I’m supposed to survive this kind of pain.