Hi guys!

Few days ago, I (25M) made a post about being invited to family trip to a foreign country. Ultimately, I declined. And now I'm stuck in a FOMO loop.

Background:

I had few reasons for that: my extreme travel anxiety and stress prone personality, poor past experiences travelling with my family, recent traumatic experience while travelling, not being fan of travelling in general, and high cost of travel, and few more.

This trip is organized by my uncle who got a great package deal, basically at cost price. Additionally, my folks and I haven't been to any foreign country yet.

The FOMO:

After declining the invite, I've been in a perpetual state of FOMO. Whenever I think about it, I repeatedly wonder if I even made a right choice declining. I think maybe all of my "reasons" or excuses are manageable, and maybe every negative thing I imagine associated with this trip is just in my head. Maybe I made a WRONG decision declining the invite.

On the other hand, when I think about my reasons for declining invite, they seem correct.

Right now, I am regretting my decision to decline. I am stuck in FOMO loop. But even if I accepted the invite, I would probably be making a post about declining, like I did previously. Now I am stuck beneath the grindstone of FOMO. None of the decisions, neither accepting or declining, gives me peace.

I don't know what to do. I don't even know if the decision I made declining invite was correct. I need help getting out of this loop and dealing with FOMO

Hi folks! I'm 25, male. I need your advice on something.

My uncle has got a really good deal on travel package. He wants his family and our family to go there. I don't.

His arguments are clear. Our families haven't been to any foreign trips. He is getting a great deal from his client; it's basically at cost price. My every family or, extended family vacation either is planned around, or inventively turns into speedrunning every famous temple in the vicinity (which sucks massively). Everyone is excited for the trip, my younger cousin, my parents.

My reasons for not wanting to go

1. My anxiety, and stress flares up during travels. If I have to describe myself, I am an anxious mess while travelling. And this is regardless of mode of transport or whether I am travelling alone or with people.
2. I am not a fan of travelling in general, especially with my family due to their fondness of visiting temples. My travel location would not have those but still, my experience travelling with my family hasn't been great. Additionally, I'm not really sold on the travel location yet.
3. I have seborrheic dermatitis. And this massively flares up while travelling, due anxiety, stress etc. And after returning I need to spend like 1-2 weeks getting it back to normal.
4. Had a Extremely Bad travel experience last year, which has really put me off on the whole travelling thing.
5. My parents don't drink alcohol and want me to be same. And they can be nosey and really combative regarding this. Dealing with them is frustrating and infuriating to a point that, it is not worth sacrificing my mental sanity even for a sip. This point is not really about drinking alcohol; it's about me having the option enjoy myself on a holiday trip, without my parents controlling me and killing my sanity.
6. Per head this trip cost is high. Emotionally and financially, I can't justify spending this much on trip that I am not interested in going. But my parents are interested, but they will not go if I don't.

I get that Travelling is supposed to an inherently uncomfortable experience. It stretches the boundary which we deem comfortable. I think, there are 3 states while travelling - comfortable, uncomfortable but bearable (UB), uncomfortable and unbearable (UU). My understanding is most people bounce between these 3 states. But for me band of bearable experiences seems to be very small, and unbearable zone seems to be very large. So rather that my comfort zone expanding, I mostly end up trying to survive.

I thought about using some excuse of prior engagements to brush off my uncle, but that will be exposed in a sec. My Uncle has started pushing me to select the package for trip. Now I can't outright deny him, as when I do, he will somehow get me to agree by the end of the day. That's just how he is.

I can't deny the possibility that maybe I just being too negative. Maybe this trip will be the best trip of my life, and maybe it will change my outlook on travelling forever for the better. But due to the reasons mentioned above, my interest in this trip, at best is neutral and at worst is negative.

I don't know what to do in this situation. Whatever I do, I seem to either fuck myself over or let down my family. I need help navigating this situation.