Rant
I feel like I am in a constant limbo.
It’s awful and I fucking hate it.
I’m stuck at my abusers (father) place again because life is expensive and tough. I don’t have a car and no place close is hiring so it’s not like I can walk there.
I don’t even have a bed in my room. I don’t get out, I do for a tiny bit when my bf comes over every 2 weeks and he only is able to be here for a certain amount of time. our relationship is amazing btw, he is supportive with me and my bpd and treats me amazing. My whole thing is I’m stuck at my father’s. I don’t even have service on my phone because I don’t have a job. Idk what the fuck to do. Along with keeping a job for me with bpd is horrendous. Like I wanna just work from home but like currently that’s impossible to find. I just want out of this god damn house. I’m always just on the floor rotting away. It’s so depressing and taking a toll on my mental health big time. I’m scared for how bad of a toll it’s gonna take.