Hello guys…
21 Male
I always been extremely active since I was born, always trained, always worked a lot too… basically, I had no reason to be depressed.. I am 21, im attractive, everyone respects me, always had the girls I wanted, I was a nightclub bouncer from 18 to 21, good money, fit muscular body, loved my job, amazing social life.. basically everything was going good, not perfect but in a good direction, but because of my routine I was very stressed, not in a bad way I think, but 1-2hour intense workout plus 12 hour nighttime bouncer shift 6 days a week for 3 years, yeah… all of a sudden in October 2025 I started having insomina and feeling out of breath too fast in my workouts despite always having very good stamina, 1 week later got sick with a virus and stopped training and work, it took a while to get back, when I got better in 5th December 2025 I catched other viral infection and since then I started having extreme fatigue and anxiety, had to quit my job that I loved, had to stop working out because of the fatigue and feeling unwell and since then I never felt good again. I did this exams:
Bloodwork Vitamins Bloodwork Thyroid Echocardiogram Holter Stress Test Sleep Study
Everything good except the sleep test, it showed major snoring 70% of the sleep time and not much REM sleep but no Sleep Apnea.
As the months gone by I started slowly becoming suicidal and just isolated and having classical depression symptoms but I dont know if I have some disease or I have just a major somatic depression that showed up in my body. Does someone have something like this? Please help me understand if this is normal.
I started searching and become a little hypochondriac, I saw CFS, ME/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome however I dont have Post-Exertional Malaise after exerting myself, even if with the extreme debiliating fatigue I do a cardio zone 3 for 30-40 minutes the next day I just feel the same extreme fatigue but I dont feel worse neither do I have the flu-like symptoms. Right now im always thinking about suicide because this fatigue is crazy, and I always been disciplined and I feel like I lost myself
Does this sound like Depression?