u/ImportantLifeguard25

Is what you are being fed. I wish you would realize that by now. All the “proof” you may have been provided has been fabricated one way or another. The only real way you will ever get the absolute honest truth is from my mouth and only my mouth. Well actually there’s your side, my side and the truth. and that truth is my truth to the best of my knowledge. I love you and I care about you. I really do wish you would come talk to me at my mother’s. And just listen to what I have to say with an open mind. It’s confusing to me as well but I do know that I forgive you and I do because we have both been manipulated and said or done things we never would have in a committed monogamous relationship. Please come see me. You know where my mother lives. I will be here

And you know that. You know that I am broken. You know that I am suffering. You know that I am lost. You know how confused I am and how I wish I could take it all back. Most of all you know how much I really never deserved any of this and how it could have been avoided had you talked to me personally rather than getting your information through all the lies I told everyone around me. You know exactly how fucked up all of this is and exactly how to stop all my pain and suffering yet you still decide to spit on me and kick me while I’m at my loneliest but still hanging on to the hope of getting any one single answer. I was an idiot thinking you would ever face me and yet I still wait while you continue to get lied to. I’m positive everything you’ve been told about me has been a lie or against my wishes and or consent. I don’t even know the half of the things I have been through because of what was given to me against my wishes, knowledge or consent. The person behind it all deserves the maximum punishment

I miss when times were much simpler. I catch myself often thinking about the very first time we spent time together ALONE. I miss those days before we ever had an argument and before I could ever look at you in any other way than perfect. I would love to go back even just for a moment. Why did things have to get so complicated. I miss YOU and I miss the man who looked at me the way he once did.

I never have. If there’s something you need to say then you have to say it. I’m too dumb and oblivious to understand so explain it to me like I’m 5.