About a week ago, one of my college roommates had expressed to me that he was having his two friends over for the weekend. He mentioned that one was a girl and one was a boy and even mentioned their names. Out of curiosity, I looked the girl up on Instagram and had noticed that she was exactly my type.
Unfortunately I was not looking to be with anyone because I had been exclusive to my ex-girlfriend for a while prior, so I chose to ignore this and told myself to keep my distance from her when she came. After a few nights had passed and his friends had arrived, I hid myself in my room for the first couple of hours of them being there. Accepting that it was my day off and that I didn't want to be stuck in my room all day, I came out of my room and sat downstairs with my other roommate who was watching TV. Seeing this girl in person made it even harder for me to neglect the idea of talking to her just because of how beautiful she was. She was short and had black hair with green/blue eyes and a septum piercing, and she had a beautiful smile that was contagious.
My roommate and his friends had taken edibles soon before I had gone downstairs, and they were hitting, so they were all pretty high and wanted to go out. One of them had mentioned 'throwing around the pig-skin' and I chimed in to tell him I didn't have a football but I had a bag of baseball equipment.. the girl laughed at how excited I got at the idea and next thing you know we were all taking turns pitching and hitting to each other on a field nearby. I even put on a hat and jersey to make her laugh at me.
We picked up a different friend of my roommates and went to a nearby field. The girl was with us but didn't care to participate in baseball activities as she chose to just record us from one of the dugouts. At one point, she ran into the woods to pee and we were yelling at her to watch out for the bears and she genuinely was frightened xD.. anyways we returned home from the field shortly after, and by then the sun had started to go down.
Soon after getting back, my ex was texting me and wanted to come over and drink, but I had already had a beer so I couldn't drive to get her and she didn't want to drive over herself, so we had just stopped texting for the night. I wanted to give my roommate and his friends some space and not include myself in their activities, as I was worried that I was being invasive, but they were playing 3-player Wii sports and I was a few beers deep so I invited myself to join them. They were pretty chill about it, though and she was happy I joined in. I had sat near her on a chair next to the couch she was on and we played 4 rounds of Tennis with every possible teammate, and we started to really hit it off. She just had such a great sense of humor and she was full of life, it made me attracted to her and I could no longer help myself. I began subtly flirting and chatting with one on one more and more, and she began flirting back to me. I specifically remember her telling me that alternative girls are always interested in blue-collar men, which is exactly what we both are and somehow went right over my head at first.
Our conversation and banter just flowed so well and it felt like she was the only person in the entire world. She encouraged me to drink more and more with her and even bullied me in a flirtatious way over any small mishap. She convinced me to put down numerous shots with her and made me drink the rest of the Arizona Hard Iced Tea because she did not like it.
We played Smash and then Mariokart and the banter continued as she got me drink more and more with her.. not a dangerous amount, but a similar amount to her which felt so heartfelt somehow. Anytime I'd drink out of her beer she'd demand me to chug it. And I never could because I didn't want to get too drunk and ruin our chemistry. In my head I'd compare our chemistry to Jesse and Celine (IYKYK) . She played Yoshi in Mario Kart and got 12th place every time haha . During this I had taken multiple bathroom breaks and I remember thinking to myself, 'no way this is happening right now', and I'd rush washing my hands just to see her faster
Soon after we stopped playing Wii, all four of us baked brownies to conclude the night and the girl and I had been full on openly flirting with each other, I had been pretending to fight her and I helped her bake brownies and did anything she asked me to. It felt like we had known each other for an eternity. I was fake fighting her while also helping her bake brownies with the ingredients she asked me to grab.
After we ate the brownies together, her and her friend had to head back to their other friend's house where they were sleeping for the night. I was so upset that she had to go.. but luckily I got her info right before she left. Moments after she walked out of my house, I texted her 'miss you already :(' to which she responded "you should've asked me to come over" ... bang
Now up to this point, I wasn't sure if all the flirting was just in my head, but this, this confirmed that she felt the same way.
Of course I jumped on this opportunity and I RAN to find her as she walked back with her friend. I was pretty hammered at this point so I had gotten lost in my own neighborhood. Eventually, she ended up at my house and I was in the middle of a neighborhood so I had to find my way back to the house. On my trip, I found a bent fork in the road, that at the time I felt was worth grabbing. I'm now holding onto this fork as it is one of the only things I have that remind me of that night. Once I got home, I ran inside and set my fork on my dining room table. I ran through my house and saw her standing on my porch.. I was so happy to see her, butterflies filled my stomach as I saw her again and I knew how special the moment was. I gave her my sweatshirt coat and we began walking to the beach. I wish I could remember more of our conversation up to this point, but it's all just a blur and I'd feel weird asking her. Would it be weird to ask?..
Anyways, I took her to the beach and it was such a beautiful night. I think it was 1-2am at this point, but the weather and the breeze felt perfect. We didn't walk far, and I found a good spot for us to sit down. We sat next to each other on the beach and exchanged laughter and heartfelt conversation as the sound of the lake waves hit us. The breeze was also hitting us, and it felt so perfect. She looked so beautiful, and the moon glimmered in her blue-green eyes. We chatted for a brief period of time, and she told me that whenever I'd go into the bathroom earlier that night, her friend and my roommate would tell her, 'he's flirting with you', and she told them that she was flirting back. She looked so beautiful and I just couldn't help myself, so I looked at her and leaned in and gave her a playful kiss on the neck, she laughed, looked me in my eyes, then we both leaned in and kissed each other. After our kiss, we were full on making out on the beach sand, it was the best kiss of my life. She giggled and told me that I'm a good kisser and she had told me how cute she thought I was. We were just so infatuated with each other in that moment, and although our feelings were enhanced due to alcohol, it was a genuine feeling of true human connection. I told her how fine and beautiful I thought she was and she couldn't believe what she was hearing. She told me that she didn't even do her makeup that day and that she was chopped, and she found it sweet that I found her so attractive at such a desperate state (in her eyes- to me she looked perfect). I had never been complimented like I had been on that beach. I had never felt so connected to someone like I had on that beach.. it was a moment I hope everyone can experience, and a moment I hope can be repeated in my future. It was better than any hard drug. We kissed on that beach for a while, and I wish it had lasted forever. Eventually we walked back to my house. I offered to walk her home and she told me it's too late to walk back. She wanted to stay the night with me... I told her to sit on my staircase while I picked up my room then I walked her in. brushed my teeth then got in my bed with her, and we kissed more and more, and she whimpered my name in my ear as I kissed her all over. She climbed on top of me to make out with me and I gripped her as we kissed.. I wish I could just relive that. This went on until we eventually fell asleep.
In the morning, we briefly talked in my bed about our own lives, I was extremely hung over and out of it, so I wasn't a great converser unfortunately. I had to work that day so there was no chance of seeing her before she left the following morning. She analyzed my room and the things on my wall, and showed me a bunch if the music she was into. I loved getting to know her and I wish I had asked more questions. After brief yet comfortable conversing, we walked downstairs, then into my car and I drove her to her friend's dorm, said goodbye with tears in my eye and went on with my day, not knowing how much I'd be thinking about our encounter for days to come.
Y'all ever see 'Before Sunrise'? That's what I'd compare this experience and our chemistry to... although our setting was my house, sidewalks, and the beach, not Vienna lol. Just knowing I'll likely never see her again breaks my heart.. and I only knew for a night. The fact that I'll likely never see her again makes me think of this movie so much. It was like she fell into my arms.. I was not outwardly looking, I just completely lucked out and an angel fell into my arms and was into ME!!! That night was the happiest I had felt in years..
Now for some bad news.. I texted her for a couple of days after, but my ex found out about our encounter and dm'd the girl a bunch of crazy shit. The girl told me she didn't want to be involved in any of it and hasn't texted me back in over a day-which will likely be an even longer period of time :(
It's really unfortunate because she seemed to feel the same way about that night and the whole ex thing probably ruined the memory a bit for her
I am 21, and the girl is 22. I stalked her on Media a bit and we do not share many similar interest, but she is my exact type in a girl. Any girl I've seen since has had absolutely no effect on me, even though I only knew her for a night. I really hope she thinks about me at least a little. If not, so be it. I can't blame her. She did mention to me that she will come up here again in the future, hopefully before I move away. I just really hope we can spend a night together like this again.
I hope whoever is reading this can experience something this great in their lifetime, and I hope I can see her again. F*CK I MISS HER!!
Anyways, what would you do in this situation? Accept you'll never see her again and move on? Make an effort to see her again? Hope an angel falls into your arms again?
If you read this whole thing.. I appreciate you.