I am a 31 year old male who can’t stop the boozing. I want to stop as it is creating problems in my life. My relationship with my beautiful girlfriend is being messed up, and I am sick of the anxiety from drinking. It seems impossible to stop.
When I take a sip of alcohol, it feels like the warmest of embraces. A hug that I’ve never experienced before. It is so comforting. Even when I know it’s bad, alcohol tells me it’s okay and I don’t have control after the first sip.
I know some may say to just not drink, but it’s almost as though alcohol is calling to me. It’s almost like it says it will be different this time. Alcohol has thoroughly baffled me.
When I am sober, I am the type of person that people want to fix problems; they come to me, and I find solutions. Without being arrogant, I think I am the absolute best when I am sober. I am very athletic, intelligent, and extremely hard working. In my mind, I’m the best.
When I drink, I’m a little bitch who doesn’t take care of his responsibilities. I leave my duties unattended and I create problems for myself and those I love. I want it to stop, but I don’t know how.
Advice?