26F Asian AuDHD, travelled to 40+ countries, 30K EUR saved, pursuing Master degree, but stuck in life
Hi guys. I genuinely am seeking for advice. I am 26F, now have 30K EUR saved in my bank account (and will add up since I have passive ”odd” freelance income but I don’t wanna forever have that career), travelled to 40+ countries already.I’m a Southeast Asian pursuing Master degree in Europe.
These achievements might seem big for lots of people, but I just feel.. stuck in life. I‘ve never been in a romantic relationships, men only want to use me, I have severe social anxiety accompanied with AuDHD as well. i constantly have brain fog and low energy in my daily life. i don’t even know what i wanna do after graduation. i don’t wanna go back to my home country, yet europe feels hopeless considering the terrible job market for a foreigner (especially in the field of humanities).
I’m now travelling a lot, but I just feel empty and burning out. I don’t find happiness from travelling anymore. I can’t really vent about this to other people since I don’t wanna be considered ungrateful.
i don’t like working out, i don’t care about styling (although people sometimes compliment me as beautiful but i feel like many people considered me as not being put together). i used to be too academically ambitious up to the point i didn’t care about my appearance at all.
guys please give me advice how to make my life better.. i feel so behind mentally compared to my peers.. especially given my neurodivergence, it’s difficult to do everything ”normally”.