Am I too young to be like this?
I'm fairly sure that I have high-functioning depression.
I am a teenager. I feel like I can't tell people because "I'm too young". But I don't know what to do. I want to escape my head. It's overwhelming. I can't do this anymore. I don't know how to keep going.
But I know that I don't have the guts to go through with it. I don't want to put my family and friends through pain. I also know that if I go, at least one of my friends would go through with it too. Their parents don't take them seriously and they are su1c1dal. I can't be responsible for that.
At the same time though, I wouldn't be there to feel bad. I'm atheist and I don't believe in the afterlife.
It's tempting, but like I said, I don't have the guts. That doesn't mean that my feelings aren't valid.
I just don't know how to speak up. I'm scared that they'll just wave it away, making excuses like "oh you're too young" or "everyone feels like that sometimes" or even worse "it's just hormones".
Is this normal? Am I just making things up? What do I do?