u/Ill_Associate_5937

I can’t fucking deal with this anymore, I’m at a complete wits end. It has taken everything from my life - relationships, ambition, education, career, self esteem - fucked. I started rapidly losing hair at 16, friends all turned on me, people humiliate you, people are extremely cruel. Had girlfriends and all of that before this and now I’m an incel - not hateful towards women just involuntarily celibate, haven’t had sex in 3 years. I cannot cope. The only thing I’m still living for is my family as I would never want to traumatise them. They think I’m a lazy bum. Dad hates me, and the mental toll I’m putting my mum through has me feeling extremely guilty as she hates to see me depressed and lose interest in everything. I’m so fucking sorry mum I just can’t help it. My brain is genuinely fucked. I tried to go to the supermarket with her but I just broke down in tears trying to style my hair. I’m not bald, just very receded and thin all over, I have barely any hope left. God this sounds so pathetic. Sobbing as I write this. All I see for myself on my current trajectory is being fucking miserable for the next 60 years and being a embarrassment to my family and everyone around me. Which I already am. I search men’s mental health on Reddit looking for support and all is see is radical feminists just openly spreading hatred towards all men and victimising theirselves because of a handful of right wing influencers. Going through something like this is unimaginably more painful than any period would never be - Jesus now I’m starting to sound hateful myself. Who tf do I talk to? Where tf do I go? Natural selection has done me horribly. I don’t want to die, I just wish I wasn’t ever here in the first place. Just the thought of having to spend another 60 years with my own brain is extremely daunting. When I was younger, around 15 ish, I would’ve never ever ever thought I would have to go through this. To make it sting even more, my little brother (16) is straight edge, amazing grades, good looking, full head of hair, he’s thriving and I love that for him - he’s my most valued relationship to me. But I look at him and think of what could’ve been for me, how unfair eh? Life’s a fucking bitch, if there is a god I must’ve really pissed him off in a past life, or he’s just a cunt

Why is this getting so many downvotes? Can’t vent about your mental health in a mental health sub? Damn no one really does gaf 🤣

20M. I was a professional mover for a year, then a garden landscaper for a few months but I got unofficially fired (not given any more jobs) as I was late two mornings in a row, only by 10 minutes but I still understand, I used to start at 7:30am. It’s been 3 weeks and I’m trying to find more work, I did an allotment job for a family member but that was only 3 days work. I’m extremely proud of my past self for saving and not just spunking all my dough, as I’d be fucked without it. I still live at my parents house and only pay £200 a month which isn’t bad, but would be a bit nicer if I had an income.
But this unemployed lifestyle is genuinely killing me, just feeling like an absolute dosser that plays PlayStation, smokes bud, has a wank and goes to the gym. I find myself up at 3-5am every night just watching pure slop and waking up at 12:30pm. Depression speed run am I right? It’s becoming extremely obvious my parents are getting sick of me being around too, how tf do I crawl myself out of this hole? Considering fucking off to Thailand for a couple months (might go full Connor Murphy), or looking into an apprenticeship to become an electrician.

L: 6 G: ?

I only really will ever dabble on a special occasion, a big night out/lads holiday etc, but my friend has started using packet before attempting to hit his max bench press every week 🤣how do I get through to him that this is not optimal and to just stick to caffeine.

L: It reached back of throat
G: Had to open mouth very wide idk

After 4 long years of uncomfortability, self hatred and depression, manz done. Don’t have the resilience for this anymore. Can barely take a shower twice a week now. Yes, it’s my fault that I’ve let it impact me this much. Peace out ✌️