how do i escape as someone very useless
How do I escape my toxic, emotionally abusive, and very toxic parents?
I'm 19F. I'm currently in college, but I'm failing really badly because I'm stupid and can't do anything, and I'm so afraid of things happening at home that I can't focus or function at all. I do not have a driver's license, and I have applied to a ton of jobs but never got the position due to my inexperience (I've never had a job before). I'm so afraid of everything happening, and I can't take it anymore. I don't know what to do, I'm insanely afraid, especially as a woman, life is horrible out there, even shelters aren't safe. I'm buried in student loans. I don't know anything about life, tbh. I've never lived alone or anything. I have money, but it's not a lot. I wouldn't be able to live somewhere safely. I've been trying to keep this in and just hope for the best, but my life is getting worse and worse. I can't take this anymore. Oh, also to mention I'm suicidal and have depression (not diagnosed but its really obvious), and they know this but choose to ignore it! All advice is helpful. Thank you for reading this post.