My PCC appointment is in less than a weeks time and I've received a sms telling me to complete some online pre visit questionnaire which I can't seem to find on my ehealth.
What to expect as such at the PCC appointment?
I was diagnosed with dysthymia and depression(?) over 2 months ago at IMH and have been offered warding during the first visit but declined. I was supposed to be constantly on antidepressants but couldn't really take them because my parents didn't want me to and also because I didn't really feel that it was working wonders for me either. (A really bad decision later down the line) Ever since I enlisted in NS till now, I feel that my life has been going downhill, with how the stress has been eating away at me. My new post-in unit environment isn't that welcoming either with how I overheard my superior saying things of how useless I am since and that I shouldn't be there (in my unit) in the first place, which I guess they're right. Well the context is I'm working as a combat fit storeman awaiting my PCC appointment with excuse FLEGS which apparently my superiors at my new unit didn't know of. I messed up my A levels and have made the decision to try to retake again this year, paying over 700 dollars so I have to commit to it. The burnout is real, even though it's only been slightly more than a month, but my environment isn't helping me either. I feel like an absolute loser with how even my parents make me feel like one even though they do not outright say it, with how seemingly all my peers are doing far better than me. I'm not sure how long I can take it, I try to take my mind off but everytime at night I just can't help but get depressed the more I think about my situation. Even though I've not been taking my anti depressants lately I just can't help but think what if I just overdosed on them. Sorry, this is the only platform I can think of to get advice on what else to do.