u/Ill-Elderberry3947

So recently I stoped watching porn because it was leaking into my normal life. I stopped so I don’t ruin myself entirely but now I just can’t stop thinking of having the most intimate sex with a loving girl. I can’t stop thinking about and I just want to try it and see how good it feels. I want to understand why I think like this but my finances aren’t in the best spot like usual so it’s kinda hard to tell anyone. Plus, it’s also hard to tell closer friends and family because mentioning my strong desire to try heterosexual sex to them would feel weird.

I keep thinking of doing it again and slowly stopped hitting a surface to forget the feeling. I want to stop thinking of it but I want it really badly at times.