Anyone else really relate to the show 'Ghosts' ?
Just started the newest season of Ghosts (didnt even realize it was out lol) and I forgot how relatable it was.
The beginning if the 5th season theyre trying to make friends and its really hard for Sam to socialize when the Ghosts are also a part of the conversation and the humans cant see/hear them, she gets confused and awkward and struggles to make it through a conversation.
Im realizing how much I feel like this when I go out and am trying to talk to people but theres often constant interjections and it can be hard to deal with, its hard to follow whats happening irl and what's in my head seperately...and often I lose the convo thread and just forget what I was saying/what the conversation is about.
Anyone else watch it and relate?
Also, any coping mechanisms?
I worked with a therapist and got to a point where I was able to build more of a communication system internally ? But I had to change therapists and have been on a waiting list for a DID knowledgeable one for like 2 years. We feel more in touch with each other and info gets passed around a lot easier but everyone also feels very loud all of the time and my memory is still pretty bad, but I generally dont lose days anymore.
Idk I feel like ive been stuck in this place for these 2 years and it kind of has isolated me into my own world. I interact with people but its hard to make deeper connections when theres this whole complex part of you that involves deep explaining and exploring to really like, understand?
My partner knows everything and its so nice to interact with them, but outside of that it feels like theres this layer of distance with everyone because I have this persona that is somewhat me. I assign my go to faves and everything but it also doesnt actually fit any of us alone. And i dont really feel like i can just relax and be my true self when im around anyone other than my partner, im kind of playing a role.
I dont really know what to do next, eventually I will work with a therapist again, but in the meantime is there any good resources? Should I even try to do anything without guidance?