u/Ignatius78

So I’m new to this fallout (first fallout played ever) and I was doing the quest my kind of town and wanted to get meyers for the town of primm but I accidentally went in and massacred the place thinking that the person I was supposed to save was in a cell block but turns out I killed them in the beginning.

My question is how it would have played out? I mean what was I supposed to exactly do because when entering the NCRCF all the powder gangers were hostile off the jump so I didn’t exactly have a choice.

After messing that up I’m going to see if I can salvage any parts to reprogram the robot in town.

So for a about basically my whole life except this very one specific period of my life I have never been able to do consistent with my goals or just anything really. Im constantly late to things unless im really excited about them (like driving 3 hours to watch project Hail Mary in IMAX) and I don’t really get things done that I personally want to do like writing stories or reading the books and comics i literally want to play. The main one and its a big one is not having a good sleep schedule and for the past year I kind of just gave up on trying to get good sleep bc of my narcolepsy (diagnosed in 2023-24). But even with my sleep disorder I know it’s possible to achieve a good sleep routine but I just can’t find it in me to do anything consistently.

At most I’ll go 3-4 days with a good routine and then it’ll completely disappear once I find something to distract from doing so. For example, i used to think that smoking thc was the root of my problem and so I quit once my cartage ran out and haven’t smoked since. It helped with sleep for about a couple days until I decided that staying up playing games wouldn’t be so bad for one night. And then the cycle repeats like that with not just sleep but doing homework or cleaning my room or doing things that I even want to do.

I feel a bit embarrassed and shameful bc I can never keep up with anything consistently. As I said I could only stay super consistent during one specific time and that was 2023-24 right before my sleep study. My doctor had told me I needed a good sleep routine in order for the sleep study to be as accurate as possible. This was also during a time I was going through a “dopamine detox” so I was on no social media phone on black and white and had little to no allowed time to play games as my schedule was usually busy. But after that sleep study it kind of just went down hill and I have been trying to get back to that level again, so any advice? Also one factor I find strange is my academics, I’m in community college and for as long as I can remember the thought of not turning in homework on time has scared me to death so I always no matter how lazy I get about it, homework is always turned in on time. I’m sorry for the long and probably bad explanation but it’s the best I could do

TLDR; I can’t find myself to be consistent with my sleep routine and daily life and need advice on how to fix this or if there’s anything I should do.