u/Idontexistlolz

So me and my girlfriend are both unemployed and have been struggling to find work for a while. We have been doing DoorDash just to attempt to get by but we live in America where everything is expensive including gas. I was getting hungry and sick so my gf suggested that we stop at $80 just to get pizza and then get the rest tommorow. On the final order we did I found a $100 dollar bill on the ground that I was convinced was real. But when we got to dominos we both noticed that it was fake and idk I just feel extremely guilty for both complaining about being hungry and not realizing the money was fake. We didn’t even make it to $80 only $75. I should’ve just kept quiet so we could’ve gotten enough money to get groceries.

Ever since I did Benadryl I have been stuck in a constant time loop the voice in my head sounds like chills from YouTube as I’m tying this out. I can’t piss or shit my life feels like a living nightmare I’m hearing ringing and what sounds like a drill I’ve been doing so much dextromethorphan and everybody is treating me like I’m fucking crazy and weird even tho what I think I’m saying makes perfect sense. I’m so paranoid it feels like everyone is watching me it feels like everyone is treating my life like a joke. I feel like I’m jester maxxing to everyone and it’s my fault. What the hell do I even do at this point I’m so manic and delirious my life feels like it’s falling apart. I did this to myself why the fuck do I keep doing this to myself