u/IdolYours

As much as i’m ashamed to admit it i did something horrible to my friend roughly 7 years ago and to this it’s effecting me on daily basis. Here’s the story : I used to be a gambling addict ( primarily ) and my friend had his card attached to the online website and once i was so desperate that i started depositing money from his card and in total it added up to 1k USD - once he found out ( i lied to him since i was afraid that it would end iur friendship but finally ended up telling the truth ) we’ve stopped being friends ever since and this is the biggest regret i’ve ever had in my life. I don’t know how to cope with this anymore - seeking professional help or whats the ultimate resolution ? Thank you in advance