u/Icy_Discount3893 — reddlx

I posted this here a while ago, I received dms from girls claiming they are going thr something similar, at first I felt a bit better to be honest to know that there is someone who understands how it feels. But then when we discussed in details it truelly broke my heart. Girls at my age taking care of, not just their parents, but their disabled brother or sister and carrying this heavy responsibility alone. I honestly felt ashamed.

Please if you are a girl and reading this, if you ever felt alone, just as everyone was reaching out to make me feel better, I am here too, I wanna create a group of us such as an emotional support group? I don't know, anything that would make us feel better.

My prayers to all the girls carrying this like I do and even more. And thanks a lot for everyone who reached out I really really appreciate it!!

I am a 25yo female from a small town in the middle of nowhere. I studied hard, did all I ever could to get a decent job.

My problem here is that life is being so hard on me. I am the only financial support for my parents, and I literally suffer every single month. I never ever made it to the end of the month without borrowing money. When I am saying borrowing, it s not about silly stuff as clothes or .. But serious problems such as an urgent health state for a parent / some legal stuff / relocating from the rented house..

I just no longer have energy to move on. It feels that I never had the chance to enjoy the money i worked for. And whenever I feel like I had one step forward, I go back 3 steps backwards.

It feels that I am just wasting my life. and I am always financially struggling. I no longer have power to continue. I won't hide that I have bad thoughts every single day because of this. It's always the same every month. I am humiliated when asking my friends again and again, I literally had days when I had one meal per day.

I tried hard to save some money to get a personal computer to look for freelancing opportunities, but I never made it to even half its price.

I sometimes think of just disappearing, going offline and not to answer my parents but I just can't I feel sorry for them, they are good people and they have no one but me. They never did me bad. They went through a lotttt to help me study and sacrificied a lotttt.

My only wish before going to bed is not to wake up. Because i am hopeless. I lost hope in my life and I can't continue this way.

It might sound illogical but I am only posting to let this off my chest I don't think there is any solution but the anonymous aspect here let me talk about it.