u/Icy-Plum-1980 — reddlx

My ugly face is worse then death sentence, I been privileged to be supported and looked after my parents since was adopted aged 2 and now 35 years old ugly NEET but they never admit I'm ugly but obviously deep down they know I am, but worse being up how your ugly face affects you and own family don't understand but the worse part is how controlling they been which made impossible to form normal boundaries, literally given up on life at 35, this not being ugly but the fact not allowed use oven or cook my own food, wash my own clothes and even leave house alone, it's even more soul destroying and depressing if no one talk to about it except strangers on Reddit. I've even had support from adult social care team and professionals who literally can't see how my "ugliness" affected my life but refer you ugliest person they seen when the meetings are over. No therapy in world will help you with the fact you have very ugly face which makes you fear leaving your house to go out in public. I even wear a mask when in meeting with my social worker and other colleagues and they don't see an issue. I think being ugly is one worse experiences man go through, you feel like your not human and can't fully experience the human experience and connect with people. You just want to die. I'm fortunate not had to work yet but I'm a loser NEET living with my parents at 35 years old socially isolated in the countryside and housebound and worse I have ruined their retirement because my anxiety so bad when leaving the house and in public they with me 24/7 and my only family. I just wish admit I'm very ugly and no future. Sure all know if really ugly getting jobs can be our the question and lucky on Pip and UC but socialising is near impossible and know having not socialised for nearly 20 years acting like undeveloped teenager at 35 years old because lack human experience like socialiaing or just being normal human. It's sad to say also not really had any happy memories other then holidays and living in toxic but loving household where no one outside seen emotional abuse when it was child to adulthood. Also humans are cruel we know that as ugly people but I'm Ugliest prob of your lot, different breed an urban myth maybe and my only social interaction is on social media like Tiktok or Reddit for last 10 years. I will say one thing notice as very ugly man, I get mocked in public at the football with my mum but I'm ignored most time almost invisible but obviously stand out like a freak but I'm avoided which has It's benefits but can't imagine living normally in society and worse part is no one cares and soul destroying and even your own parents don't accept your ugly when they never been called ugly once there life and you get everyday you leave house by upsetting a stranger with your presence. I not taken a selfie probably for over 10 years and when I say being 'ugly' should be disability socially I mean it, it's more damaging to your mental health then someone handsome in wheelchair with no legs who everyone loves and respects, doesn't spend years lonely in his bedroom playing video games and addicted to sex webcams and acting like they teenager at 35 years old. I don't have a worse existence yet not in poverty but it's not going to improve or get better.