u/Icy-Amphibian7950

I made a completely seperate post about this artist but this time I’ve never realised how badly it’s affecting my life.

There’s this artist called rag_🥄 on twitter and there was this artist piece he made which was really sexual and for some reason it upset me so badly so whatever. 2 weeks I got over it.

Than on twitter I found out he has 520K followers his top posts are 100-120K likes and he gets 2-3M averagely. I couldn’t cope with it and I feel so weak and pathetic why am I so upset by that? I searched it all up and used (robots) and he’s just generally pretty big in anime fandoms but. Anime art and whatever it’s called “waifu art” is massive he’s not a generally well known artist he’s just another artist among thousands and thousands of 500K followers artists but why am I so upset by it? He does nsfw and that’s normal but it’s been so bad I didn’t want to get out of bed for a while and I constantly want to just end it I can’t do this anymore he won’t be huge or massive he’s jsut another really successful artist but it’s just hurting me so badly.

Like I hate this feeling I would of never discovered him even if I was interested in that art he’s just big in those communities and stuff.

I don’t know why but I just want someone to tell me if I’m wrong or right or something. I went to my first therapy session about the topic but I just felt worse I can’t do this anymore but I feel guilty like I’m first of all too scared to do yknow what and also I’d be leaving my best friend and my parents.