Don't do it girl don't do it, should I do it?
I've never had this kind of issue before I'm usually good at rationalising things and giving advice but maybe you guys could put some sense into my head...
About six months ago, I talked to someone in here. Respectful, smart, great conversationalist, amazing guy, had his share of misadventures, not perfect because who is but truly a man after my own heart. I was going through an unusually difficult time and it was easy to open up to him. He shared some personal details about his life too, we got to know eachother both on a superficial but also in a profound way, we had things in common things we differed in ( major one being religious belief, relevant later on) and I slowly and very predictably found myself getting attached. Nothing was said about that. Eventually, some miscommunication happened, he took some time to answer, looking back it wasn't that unusual or maybe it was but I just felt very anxious and unstable and it affected me in ways that it shouldn't have so I left him a goodbye message and deleted my account.
That didn't exactly fix anything. I went back to my usual routine and the anxiety and stress slowly faded, but even six months later I'm deeply saddened. I really like him and my admiration for him is genuine and hasn't diminished one bit. I'm not looking at things from rose tinted glasses, not idolising him the least, but I haven't looked up to someone like that ever or since and it feels like a great loss that I might not get over...
Now, I have been considering reaching out again, but because of the aforementioned religious differences ( big one but I'm hopelessly hopeful) and the fear of getting rejected because I feel like I screwed up, I don't know if it's a wise thing to do. But I'm also thinking, if I do talk to him again and he flat out says hellnaaaaah I'd at least have reason to forget about it.
Help me