u/I_eat_glitterglue

My dad keeps yelling at me, I cried 4 times today, I got jealous of my cousins singing, I cutted, i failed a suicide attempt,I almost brokedown in front on my family, I can't sleep, my father called me a disappointment, I didn't even finish my homework, my mom randomly insulted me and my brother yells a lot.... What the fuck will I do with my life.... Like is there even a point in living? How do some people live so happily. I don't know what to do, every time I try to do something I enjoy someone ruins it, and when I try doing something else it's always wrong...

Guys is it only me or when I cut for a while like for 20 Mins straight, I start feeling sleepy?? Lol cuz every time I do this happens.