u/ILoveSpring_4401

I am feeling jealous....of other people's success, and regretful...of how my life is turning out. I am in my early 40s. Back when I was 35, I felt burnt out in the corporate, and have realized that negative energies of corporate people drain me. I prefer either with good people or remote work. But definitely not being with fake and sucking corporate people. Now I realized that I have kept myself small, I worked low-paying remote jobs and ran a small home business. Really kept my world small, both socially and financially. Today, I saw a L*inkedIn post of my former colleague (a nice one), he is now a C-level and I am admiring his lifestyle. I wish I didn't have these childhood issues and these issues with my siblings. Otherwise, I would have been unafraid to be successful, considering that I am very competent at what I do and my output has always been praised compared to other colleagues. But here I am, unemployed right now and I don't know what to do. How were you able to break free from mental barriers and effects of the past?