u/IDKaGoodName_mhm

Does anyone else put themself in a box to not get hurt, but then try and break that cycle to just get proven right every time? Im 21 years old and i legit havnt had a life in 4 yrs. Got 2 friends that i never see bc i work 70+ hrs a week (not a choice). But like when i even try to improve my mental or my quality of life i just get bent even harder. Im so lost and dont know what to do. Its pushed me to the point that all i do is drink and smoke all the time bc ik i can enjoy my own company when im fucked up. Im out of options at this point