u/I-Love-Pluto

I’m still trying to move on from my past awful relationship with my rapist, but with multiple occurences of it happening during our relationship (6) its so hard to not keep thinking about it at random moments. My friends and family wont take me seriously about it and keep telling me to go to therapy, but my problem lies in how difficult its been for me to connect and open up with the people around me (and because i have autism the traditional therapy method doesnt really work for me because i think differently than everyone else, id need mucb more expensive therapy that i cant afford). I’ve tried reaching out to the RAINN hotline and they completely disregarded what i was saying entirely and hung up on me, and I’m struggling to find sexual assault support groups around me for comfort. I can’t tell anyone about it so i can let go, and i don’t have any resources or options to look to so i can reach out. I mean what the fuck do i do here?