I need some advice on how to keep moving and just stay alive. I was broken up with in jan 10th, my ex had Borderline personality disorder and the breakup came outta nowhere 9 months down the drain, at first it was a break for her mental health and she was saying how i gave her the world and she would come back. week later of her constantly texting she missed me blocked me and said she already found someone else. She emotionally manipulated me the entire releationship and i let it happen.
So for about 2 weeks after i kept trying to contact to see what i could do to fix our releationship but it was always the "we had this conversation so many times" but the conversation was her just being upset at me for the smallest things. i was confused, she talked to my best friends and was shit talking me DURING and after the releationship.
I tried to commit suicide about 2 weeks ago and ended in the ICU for a week. this pain is unbearable and i just need advice to survive and fix my mentality
i am M (16) i understand theres more to life and im young but ive been isolated due to a rare disease on my kidney. so any help or advice would be greatly appreciated
i forgot to mention we were always together and or calling 18+ hours a days. I couldnt call her either, I always had to wait for her to text or call bc whenever i did she always got upset bc she was having "me time". I always had to pickup the phone even if im in the middle of a game with my homies so for 9 months i barely played or talked to them bc either id ditch them or it wasnt worth trying to play bc i knew i was gonna be called. Addionally She always made smeer comments about my looks and always found a way to make me feel horrible no matter what i did. I never yelled despite getting so angry a few times, i spent 400 dollars as a teenager on her and she laughed in my face when i told her. She also always touch me or make me feel used whenever we were together, I always let her do what she wanted I in my eyes almost the perfect bf other than looks. i gave her what she wanted, priased her, commiplented her 20+ times a day while she barely called me handsome or cute. she never did anything for me either and also would talk to the AI boyfriend thing when she was "lonely" played games and call her "homboys" for hours sometimes and always ditched me for her friends.