I want to stop/ seek help for my Maladive daydreaming.
Hi , First of all English isn't my first language so sorry for any grammar/ phrases mistakes.
I'm a 17 girl and I have maladive daydreaming since I was young (5-6 years old I think).
It's always been scenario with OC about show or book I've seen. It was always triggered by music.
When I Daydreaming I turn around the place I'm on and do exaggerated expressions/ mimic the lyrics of the music I listened to to match my scenarios. I "hide" it to my parents by saying that I was "dancing". My parents still believe it. It was already eating my social life and scholar one back then but since I've obtained a phone and therefore music listening app It became way worse.
It's eating my life now. I don't do any other hobby like drawing, playing, reading. I don't do anything really. I was supposed to write this post months before but I always postponed it. I always like studying and school but now I can't study at home and became a really bad student. I think this is the most affecting part for me.
I tried to solve the problem by myself before by deleting spotify or hide my headphone but I always come back crawling to it. It work like a addiction, everytime I realized I need to stop it I end up minimizing the problem and jump back into it.
I'm having a talk with my mom tomorrow about my school situation. I don't know if I should talk about it , I don't know if she will understand. I would like to seek medical help but is Maladive daydreaming recognized ? If yes to who should I seek help ? Maybe I could talk about it with my principal teacher at school (I like her a lot) but same with my parents, how could I explained the matter without sounding delusional ?
I feel lost , no one knows about this, not even my friends. It's affecting my life so much, I can't fight it back alone ?
Anyway thank to everyone who will read this and bring answers.
Sorry if it's messy It's my first-time using reddit.