I love my husband so very much. He is honestly one of the best things to happen to me, and i cant imagine life without him. I want to get that clear and squared.
My guilt stems from me. I feel so bad that I cant please him. That i rely on him too much and he is going to get annoyed from me one day and cheat or leave me. I feel so guilty that he works so hard so we can have a roof over our heads. Food on the table and everything that we have. I feel so guilty that even through all that my depression still gets a handle on me and body slams me like a semi hitting me out on the street. Some days i am so bed ridden and i see the sadness in his eyes. i know the sadness is from him feeling sorry for me. But i am scared that im too much for him and that he will leave me.
Why do i feel this way? Untouched trama i haven’t noticed until now?