u/Hungry_Pea3086

i dont know what to do anymore. ive made a few posts here but its genuinely because i have no one to talk to. every day theres a new compulsion, ritual, or panic. i cant stop thinking about everything ive ever done wrong and ruminating over it, worried im a bad person who doesnt deserve to be here anymore. ive started questioning my own morals, wondering if this truly is ocd or if im in some sort of denial. im so scared ive hurt someone without remembering, and one day its going to come back to get me. how do i deal with the not knowing? my brain keeps coming up with memories that i cant tell are true or made up. its beginning to take a toll on me. i dont feel like myself anymore