u/Hungry_Implement1856

Hi, im 20 and have borderline personality disorder, during my adolescence i tried various times to take my life.

And now that im an adult im trying to always hope for the best but a part of me is scared because i know how down i can go and i fear that someday i will take my life even if i'm trying my best now, i fear that im doing all this for nothing and that one day impulsively i will commit without being capable of thinking.
And i really hope not because i want to get better and never go back

For those that are doing mid well, are you also thinking this?