u/Hungry_Direction4509

I only get stomach issues occasionally and my chest feels weird only if really bad stuff is happening. But inside of my head I have an anxiety factory, it makes me feel like there is this pressure in my brain, filled with worries and making me feel all sort of ways, or like a pressure to resolve stuff, or just a strong feeling of doom or sadness over things, and it's practically constant. The only physical thing that I feel a lot is tension in my body. But this anxiety makes me feel on edge, makes me lack concentration, makes me wanna hide or run away. It's like my head is too filled with stuff and the world is too much for it, like I'm saturated 24/7, lots of anxiety loops as well

Is that common experience ? Because I have been in this sub a bit and it seems people have more trouble with the body

I showed him a text explaining how I felt, and I told him I wanted to discuss in next session how to fix this :( I'm scared he will say it's ok to feel this way, because I don't know how to deal with that. I know, logically, that he is not my dad, but I have cried twice thinking one day he will leave or die. I know one day he will leave, it's just logical. And I'm only like, 1 month in therapy and I have enough problems to last for a long time, but I'm just so worried about this. I told him how I felt but I hadn't mentioned the grief yet. I have lots of shame about this and now I feel like the grief its a weight I will have to carry. But like, he is so cool to me, I don't want this thing to ruin it.

But I can't stop this feeling like his office is my safe place at this point and when I want my dad he pops up in my head. It doesn't matter how much I try to parent myself. And I'm 26 years old, I'm way too old to be feeling like this I know but the worst is the grief heeeeelp