u/HungryHeight731

The past month or so(since it started getting warm outside)

•My sex drive is higher

•I've been feeling the urge to not sleep

•Irritability

•Feeling like I need to be doing something, especially when I'm trying to sleep

•Racing thoughts

•Trying to figure out how to fix my whole life at once

•Smoking more weed and cigarettes

•Listening to music again, specifically songs or artists I don't typically listen to

About 5 days ago to now

•I was laying in bed trying to get tired when I heard a whisper say "did you hear that?" I looked to my partner cuz I thought it was them but they were asleep

•Next morning, I was extremely irritable, full of Rage all day for no reason

•Didn't eat much all day

•Ended up staying up all night, took my dog on a walk at 3:00 a.m., smoked weed and cigarettes pretty much all night, then I laid in bed for about half an hour with my eyes closed until it was time to get up for work

•I was feeling great. Not tired at all, in a good mood, Etc

•Actually ate on my break at work for the first time in at least a couple of weeks

•Was scrolling through reels after work and found a song that has been the only song I want to listen to

•I reorganized my whole storage closet in 2 hours, no break. Pretty impressive cuz it was pretty bad. It's been on my to-do list for months

•I continued to clean until bedtime

•Started to feel a bit more irritable towards evening time

•Was definitely more paranoid than usual taking my dog out, was so scared something was going to get me I had to take deep breaths and regulate myself when I came inside

•Wasn't feeling very tired but I decided to go to bed at 10:30 anyways, this is my usual bedtime

Took a little bit to fall asleep, but I did. I actually woke up to the alarms that I've been missing every morning for the past couple of months

Today, I was a bit irritable. Decided I did not want to be at work anymore, I was only there for 2.5 hours today. Felt like I had more important things to do.

Got home and have been reading about bipolar disorder and writing about my life experiences with these traits for the past 6 hours

Okay, I need to be told if this sounds manic/hypomanic. And if not, what does it sound like? Cause im definitely not my usual self.

This past month, pretty much since it got warm out, I've been fighting the urge to not sleep. It's like the motivation to get all of the things that I've been putting off done, hits me while I'm laying in bed, supposed to be sleeping. It's kind of like an anxious feeling but not necessarily negative, just feeling like I need to be doing something. I've definitely been smoking a lot more weed and cigarettes than I usually do. I've also been drinking every weekend instead of only some weekends like usual, and on work days, I have the urge to drink when I don't necessarily usually do. Also, my sex drive has been higher than usual. I've been neglecting my hygiene, not washing my face for days when normally I wash my face morning and night. And then, four nights ago I was laying in bed wide awake, trying to get sleepy, and I heard a whisper that sounded like it was right next to me that said "did you hear that?" Because I had been hearing some (i think real)sounds from outside. I eventually did fall asleep, though. The next day I was unusually irritable, I had to go to work and everything was pissing me off so much, even when I got home, talking with my partner was pissing me off for literally no reason. I was like that all day. I ended up not sleeping that night, I wrote a bunch, took my dog on a walk, and laid down for about half an hour with my eyes closed before getting ready for work. I was feeling great, not tired or anything. I actually ate on my break at work for the first time in a while. At home after work, I was scrolling reels, and I found a song that scratches my brain in just the way I need it. I haven't been listening to much music the last couple of months, just a couple of hyper fixations here and there. Artists and songs i dont typically listen to. This one song is the only thing I've wanted to listen to since I found it. I cleaned out and reorganized my storage closet in 2 hours, which is pretty fast considering it was a disaster in there. I've been putting that off for months. I did some more cleaning tasks, honestly not a whole lot, but after not sleeping? And i wasn't all that tired after either. My normal is i get home from work, do a couple of small things around the house, usually only the necessary tasks, and then i either nap for a few hours, or just hang out till I take my dog out and go to bed. Last night, when I was taking my dog out, I was much more paranoid than usual. I have been the past few days. Im generally a fairly paranoid person, but this was like panic. I was so scared I was gonna be attacked, I had to like take a minute to breathe and regulate after getting back inside. I did go to sleep after that tho, about 1030, around my usual bedtime. It took a little bit for me to get to sleep, but I did. I woke up this morning and had some like blind spots in my vision? Think it was a blood pressure thing or something. I was slightly irritable this morning. I really didn't want to be at work, so I left early. Im really wanting to take a shot right now, but there's no reason behind that, I just do. Im feeling a bit tired, but only in my body. My mind is awake and wanting to move move move