Missing it...
I haven't taken 7oh since around mid February. I started taking it around July last year after years of off and on again leaf use. Got to around 100+mg a day. My 7oh use actually began as a result of moving to a state that doesn't allow 7oh or leaf. I couldn't find any reputable vendors to send me leaf but started seeing sites that sold 7oh and it claimed it was a stronger Kratom so I got curious. Well at the time a few 7oh sites actually shipped it to my address and from the first time I took it I knew that it was going to be a problem for me. Painkilers are my drug of choice since high school. Never developed a full on addiction to them mainly because they were difficult to come by and the fears of fent. Kratom was my crutch, until 7oh.
I developed an addiction to them after a few months of use. And struggled pretty hard to stop. Eventually resorting to Subs, which I've been taking for a little over a month. It has helped tremendously but for the last week or so I have been craving 7oh very badly. Going as far as going to a few of the sites that I know will ship to me and having items in my cart but at the last second realizing that it would be such a mistake to go back..
My girlfriend and I have been trying to have kids and I have read that it affects sperm quality (idk about the validity of those claims) saving for a house, and the fears of the feds finding out I'm shipping a schedule 1 to my house are just a few reasons that I keep telling myself not to do it. Also the obvious fears of going through addiction, but with having Subs I keep trying to convince myself that quitting will be easier now.
I just miss the feeling of coming home from work and getting high or having a chill weekend and taking it and watching a movie etc.. it was so good at first. I don't miss waking up in the middle of the night to take it so I could go back to sleep and a lot of the other withdrawal symptoms.. it's still such a struggle to stay off sometimes