I'm broken...
Hi there, i am not a native speaker so excuse me for my English
Me (F, 25) fell in love with A (M, 24). I have known him for 8 years. But one month ago we spoke each other for the first time in years. We chatted for a while and he came to my place for a small gathering. The connection was instant. But I saw him as a friend then. We have the same energy, humor and have a lot in common. He is also really sweet and caring. At a random point he told me that he thinks i'm pretty but could not do something with me because of my stepbrother (they are friends).
I fell for him quickly. But i had a feeling he would not see me the same way. I friendzoned him (i feel so guilty) by saying he could be a potential best friend because we have such a great chemistry in a friend's way. We chatted almost every day. Saw each other now and then. It was always fun, we could laugh for hours.
A friend of mine (not really close but were okay) didn't know about my crush on him. So they kissed one night. That was painful to see. But i accepted their fling.
Yesterday i had a drink with both her and A. They kissed, and that hurt a lot. At a certain point i was chatting with A, i was a bit drunk and i confessed my feelings for him. He told me he has the same feelings for me. But he had to make a choice between me and her. He chose her. He fell in love with her.
I am devastated. We chatted for hours. We both felt bad. We really want to stay friends because we bond so good. After all we watched a movie and we had fun.
It hurts that i am not the chosen one. I feel flattered that he likes me, but the outcome hurts me like hell. And i have a feeling that things would have ended different i had confessed my feelings earlier. I want to stay friends, but it hurts to know that he chose her. And i get it if we will talk less because he is serious about her. I have to get over him and drop the hope (because there is no way). I am so heartbroken...