u/Hungry-One-4947

I had my first ever sex almost 6 weeks back. And after the intimacy, i found out the guy was texting multiple girls. Even took an emergency pill, just to be sure. His constant avoidance, pain, heartbreak and feeling of disgust got me back into my depression again. I had my semester finals going on and i couldn't focus and ruined it too. I found out i was 5 weeks pregnant 4 days back. With no other options, i had to abort it. And he acted as if he was sorry and wanted to atleast be there as a friend, so i decided to atleast keep him in loop, also so that i could actually talk my mind out to someone. I took misoprostal last night and it started immediately an hour later. The guy chose to sleep the exact moment it all started. I was spiraling and texting him constantly, bleeding out, bearing the pain. And all I got was a "My phone was low on battery. I slept last night." , text this morning. The hardest part was never the pregnancy or abortion, but the disappointment and heartbreak, his actions and the feeling of unloved. Now, all I am left with is utter disappointment, disgust, dirt all over me and the never-ending guilt of taking a life. I could see the sac and embroy as they are in whole. And the guy? Still no text!