Growing up
recently turned 20, and i don’t know how to cope with losing my teenage years. because of my depressive episodes i wasted all of that time feeling sorry for myself and now i will never go back. I had this image in my head, that i was so annoying and stupid that i never left my room, and all i wanted was to be grown, but right now i find myself wishing to go back to 16 more than anything. the feeling of knowing i can never go back is physically painful, i know this is a part of growing up, but does it ever go away? i can’t get over the fact that i will never be a teenage girl again and that stage of my life is over, it’s like im mourning someone close to me that died. im not excited at all to be in my 20s, i just want to go back. there was still so much i wanted to do while a teenager, but i never got to do. Any advice?