My ex (35M) and I (28F) did LD for two years, spent almost a month together at my country at the start of the year and it was amazing, we felt happy and at peace with each other. Now its gone and I dont know what to do. He left me a couple of weeks ago, said that he loved me and wanted a future with me, but couldnt do this anymore. Last week he asked me to talk and said that he left me because he had cheated on me, but loved me and wanted to try again. I said yes, and four days after that he left me again, saying he wasn’t sure he could keep waiting (I was supposed to do a masters at his country next year).
I feel shattered and can’t stop looking at my phone, my days feel empty without our texts and videocalls. I should be mad because of the cheating but the love I feel for him is just overshadowing that. I really thought we were forever. I just wanted to share this and see if anyone knows how to cope. I feel like I might die from this heartache