It won’t feel like this forever right?
I’m 18 and ending my first year of college. I didn’t do too well, academically I had a 3.4 gpa last semester but this semester I’m gonna fail a class. I feel really bad about it. Socially was worse, I didn’t make a single friend. I’m really depressed, I’m too ashamed to say it fully out loud to my actual mom and dad, they’re busy dealing with my dad’s worsening health issues right now. I feel so so lonely, I have since I was 12. It all feels impossible, even just getting out of bed, brushing my teeth, showering, going to class. I can barely do those things so making friends was basically a pipe dream. I’m in therapy, I have meds I for some reason can never take consistently, but it’s still all so fucking hard. I feel like I’m falling behind everyone else, that they have this magic I don’t. I feel like an alien most of the time. When does it get better? This is a stupid question because logically I know the only way for it to get better is to make it better myself. But by god it feels so impossible and out of reach right now. Really I guess what I’m asking is to hear from people who struggled like this when they were my age or in college, is it better now? Did you figure it out? I’m scared.