Fear of Going Crazy
I had OCD since my childhood and going to therapy since 2020 and I had a significant recovery about a majority of my obsessions. However, after having a bad argument with an insane/schizo neighbour a month and a half ago (who was also attacking my parents when I was a child), my anxiety just went on the roof (I guess it also originates from some trauma). But I was still fine in this sense until I had a ego death experience with the green thing 2 weeks after that. My ocd sypmtoms started to go back again, and I developped a severe fear of developing psychosis. Whenever I spot an irrational thought (such as thinking someone is watching me and me obsessing over it or some irrational contamination fear or perceiving something as a sign), I start to panic and this genuinely counsumed me so much. I involuntarily start to question if the things i see and hear are real or not and panic over it. Idk what to do..