u/Honeybuns777

Idk what to feel*

Ummm so today was very emotional for me. I had my most stressful day where I told my therapists everything I’ve been holding on too. Like all my negative thoughts and just a lot of things I’ve kept to myself. But as usual they helped me out and I ended our session feeling hopeful. However, towards the end of our session. They drop the news that they’re leaving the practice. And our next session is our last session. I’ve been seeing them about a month now… but they’ve helped me so much and ngl I guess I’ve gotten attached to them to a sense that when they told me the news I felt saddened cause they became part of my routine and I felt comfortable enough where I didn’t feel I needed to hold back anything. This is my first therapist and I’ve really enjoyed them but I know everything must come to an end. Anyway I’m just having mixed feelings. And a tiny bit worried about having a new one.

PS I also wanted to ask can I get them something as a thank you? . Write them a thank you card,l? candy? Gift card? Idk what’s professional or not but want to show my gratitude.

Hello everyone I’m 31M. I’ve had anxiety I feel really since Covid era or a little bit before. Besides the pandemic I was dealing with personal things. And after many years of panic episodes, going to the ER cause I felt like I was dying only to be told it’s my anxiety talk to your doctor, get a therapist. And I’ve told my doctor they told me to talk to a therapist at one point they even gave me some pills. But I felt too proud to take them and never called a therapist cause I felt I was recovering on my own and I did or would but then the circle would start again. Anyway this year I’ve had enough. I finally got a therapist and it’s been working I feel like I could think logically and think clearer. However, I can’t shake this feeling of regret and shame that why I didn’t get help sooner and how much time and energy wasted what could’ve been a simple phone call away. I’ve also felt now that I’m getting better and I can see the light from the dark pit in for so long. Like something bad is gonna happen, and the worst part is I could see it. Like sometimes I could see myself dying and I could see my friends and family mourning. NOT saying I want that and would never want that. I’m saying I can’t help to shake it off from thinking of those things like maybe they’re gonna find a have a disease they can’t cure, I’m gonna have a fatal crash ima eat the wrong this and get sick. I’m gonna talk to my therapist about this tomorrow but also felt like I needed to vent.