Hello everyone and thank you for checking out my post here. I need help regarding a girl in school.
Yesterday I was at a friends house for a BBQ and sleepover. He had invited his girlfriend and two other friends (a guy and a girl) as well, most of us being 14-17.
So this other girl that he invited (i won't mention her name but ill call her for the sake of this post, L) is in the 8th grade and I am in 10th grade. Im 17 and this girl is turning 15 in a couple of weeks.
Earlier in the evening I had drunk some whiskey and a beer so things were a little warm and fuzzy for me. This girl, L, has said to my friend that she thinks I am really good looking and hot, blah blah but I didn't really consider her as a possible girlfriend because of our age gap.
So later that evening we were playing some truth or dare and spin the bottle and it turns out me and this girl had to kiss. So this was a little strange because I have never kissed anyone or been in s relationship with a girl and I guess I was kinda excited...?
But anyway, after the game we had set out mattresses and blankets on the floor of my friend's cabin and there wasnt much room so it was a really tight for 3 people on the floor (my friend and his girlfriend slept together).
Anyway as you can prolly see where this is going, ill cut to the chase. I offered L an earphone and played some music for the both of us. Keep in mind we were lying next to each other. Earlier in the day she was like super excited for me to come and when I got there she kept sitting next to me and being very flirty.
After I had put on the music it began to get very sensual I guess I would say. Like she kept staring into my eyes and I into hers. There was a lot of tension. At one point she took my hand and held it and I held hers and squeezed. I took this as a sign and leaned in for a kiss. She French kissed me, and I gotta say it was really nice. My very first time.
After this she said to me that she was a little shocked and surprised and even a little scared so we laid off for the night.
And in the morning after, me and her spoke about it and im thinking, wow what sort of mistake have I made? I mean shes soon turning 15 and im 17 and a half and like shes just a little bit older than my younger sister. But I explained to her that I have been yearning for a girlfriend for a really long time, its like all my friends have had one or are in a relationship and im the last one in line waiting. So maybe the kiss was a sort of desperate act fueled by the alcohol and games.
And now, my question is, is this weird? The age gap i mean? I dont want to hurt her in any way but I want to be sure what is happening here and I would really appreciate some advice since this is my first time.
Thank you for reading, again.