I finally left product design. At the start I was so excited about it, I loved the idea to design things for HUMANS. But the more I worked, more I realised the job is mostly about arguing with marketing team, explaining why my design would work, dealing with stupid management and bosses, it was so frustrating. I was researching and proving my ideas but never get to prod…. Building components… that never get to prod. I started hating it honestly, kept pushing myself and crying every night, getting panic attacks before going to work and at work. I got fired in January and finally started career of my dream since childhood (photography). Happier than ever. Before I couldn’t work for an hour without feeling miserable, now I can work 12 hours a day being on photoshoots, but coming back home with such relief and feeling that I am finally doing something meaningful for myself.
After endless lying to myself that I love design, forcing myself to keep going, convincing myself that I did choose a good path, that this is right, this is a proper job.. It wasn’t easy to come to this decision, after all I’ve spend so much effort and money on bootcamp, building portfolio website, managed to work in corporations, the pay was higher than any average job I’ve done before, but the more I worked as a designer, the more I hated myself and my life. Eventually depression got so bad, I was taking too many sick leaves and got fired for that. And I am so happy about it.
Anyone else that can relate?