What is going on???
I am barely BARELY 4 weeks pregnant. I mean this literally just happened, but I knew something was off at about 7DPO. I have just come out of a 16 week long cut and 2 weeks ago I finally hit my true maintenance after working up for about 4 weeks. I was at a new low bf % and hitting PRs I’ve never hit before (weightlifter), and suddenly I had a string of about 3-4 days of the most intense hunger and junk food cravings I’ve ever had. I mean, 4 months of intense discipline and training and it feels my mindset is gone over night. At least one pint of Ben and Jerry’s a day, a whole thing of double stuf Oreos SLAMMED, fully loaded chipotle bowls every day. My mother made me a box cake and I ate half of it in one sitting while my family just stared and lightly questioned, “What happened to the whole macro counting thing honey?…”
How is this happening? I KNOW the baby does not need these calories, it doesn’t even have a circulatory system yet right?? Is it all in my head?? Why am I this hungry?? Am I actually just weak-minded and as soon as I suspected I was pregnant I subconsciously felt I finally had a reason to go on a binge??
This is my second pregnancy and I didn’t feel anything like this until my second trimester with my son. I am so disappointed in myself over the loss of discipline and the extreme jump in weight in the last week. I’ve been in this game long enough to know it’s almost impossible to gain the body weight in actual fat that I’m seeing in the spike on the scale, but the mental aspect after a 16 week cut is killing me. I don’t know if I need a medical explanation or some encouragement from women who went through this and still managed to salvage some semblance of discipline through their pregnancy, at least for a bit longer then the first 4 weeks! Sorry for the rant, but I feel like a bloated, chocolate-icing covered shell of my former disciplined macro-counting self.